I am FAT!

I am not sure what is more shocking, the fact that I weight what I do or the fact that I am putting it out here in this format. But this is it, it is embarrassing, humiliating, sad, gross, despicable, and it is my reality.

I want to change, I have to change. I look at myself and I don’t know who I am looking at. This is not the person I am or am suppose to be. I had bigger dreams for myself, I still do and none of them can happen until I lose all the excess and find who I am.

I am going to daily account for what I eat and how much I exercise. This is my way of starting my new life, not hiding behind cute clothes (plus size mind you), my funny disposition, and especially no hiding behind my FAT! I am not going to be afraid to say, yes I am fat. It is a three letter word and it is about time I stop treating it as if it is a four letter one. I know I am overweight, everyone that can see me can see that I am overweight, but why tiptoe around a little three letter word.

This journey is going to suck! I already know that gaining the weight, afternoons watching television and eating everything in sight, was a lot more fun and easy that loosing the weight will be. This is my life we are talking about, not just the life I have but the life I want. So I am getting in gear to change the existing.