passion

i have debated about this post all morning. grief is such a weird thing. i wish there were a book on protocol for those of us that are not close friends or family but still feel tremendous sadness and loss when learning about a death. i fall into that category. am i allowed to write about someone that i didn’t know all that well, but i clearly have strong feelings about. feelings that i didn’t even know i had. so i write. it is what i do when i am conflicted. i don’t know the rules but this is how i feel.

my heart breaks. i have been crying off and on since yesterday afternoon when i heard the news. a fellow social worker, myrna died suddenly, unexpectedly, at the too young age of 41 from a stroke. just a couple weeks ago i learned that she had just had her first child, a boy. at 3 weeks old he has lost his mother. this just seems so wrong. so wrong. things like that are not suppose to happen.

i first met myrna when i was interning as an undergrad. to be completely honest my first impression was that she must be on speed because i have never met anyone so full of energy and life. but the more i got to know her the more i realized that that energy never seemed to fade. she had just gotten engaged to her now husband. she was on top of the world.

in a professional setting she was fierce. i remember speaking with her at a state conference and she asked me what i was passionate about. i gave pause. i don’t think anyone had ever asked me that before. i didn’t know how to answer. she told me that you must find things, people, issues that you are passionate about. i did.

reflecting on her and this conversation i think that passion was what drove her. she was full of energy because of her passion. passion is a primal force. some people have it and some are drawn to it. some strive to achieve it and others run screaming when they feel it coming. myrna had it. i remember during that brief internship that i was drawn to it.

with a heavy heart i am thinking about her family, her husband, her son, her dear friends, those of us who knew her but not well enough, and her. i am thinking about her today.

3 comments
gindy
gindy

i think that you have honored myrnas life in your writing. i pray for all the ones who loveher and will miss her zest for life.

Shannon
Shannon

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking of you and her family. So sad.

Stan and Dana
Stan and Dana

This is good, Kelsi. I think it's really healthy to write and process this stuff even if you didn't know her well. I'll be praying for her family. :(