courage

two weeks of pregnancy symptoms.  four days of testing positive for our pregnancy.  only to follow by three negative days.  and now severe pain and bleeding.  the pregnancy is over.  it is over before it ever really started.  a chemical miscarriage.  our goods connected and did their job but just didn’t implant.  i am told it is natural.  i am told it is normal.  i am told that without amazingly early detection pregnancy tests i would have never known.

but i do know.  there are not enough rain drops to camouflage my tears.  somewhere.  somehow.  i must find courage.  i must find a way to release myself from the grips of sadness.  of darkness.

maybe tomorrow.

3 comments
Hillary
Hillary

My darling, I'm so heartbroken to read this. I'm ever so so so sorry. You amaze me with your strength & courage everyday!! I will be praying for you.

Stan and Dana
Stan and Dana

I'm so sorry Kelsi... :( :( :( I don't think I'll ever understand why we have to lose our little ones. Prayers for you.

Bee
Bee

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that one day you will again find that quiet courage; I hope it is soon.Best wishes,Bee