making healthy choices and dealing with haters

since my awakening last week about my weight gain i have been motivated and consistently staying focused.  making healthy decisions.  it feels great actually.  to get back into the routine of counting calories.  weird.  i know.  but right now with feeling so out of control of so many things, having this one aspect of my life that i can control is doing my mental health wonders.

along with making healthy choices i feel sad that i must write about this.  sad and angry.  but i am chosing to address it head on instead of sweeping it under the rug.  i monitor comments to my blog before they are published.  i get a lot of spam and a lot of stuff about my etsy shop that i like to keep separate from the blog.  i have received two tremendously nasty comments from cowards that are “anonymous.”

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here are my thoughts:
why are you reading my blog if you wish me ill will?  what kind of person are you to read a blog where someone puts themselves in a vulnerable position only to take pleasure when they struggle?  in general, what kind of person takes pleasure from someone else’s pain? it is pathetic. you, dear anonymous, are pathetic.

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at first when i read these comments my feelings were really hurt.  but i quickly recovered.  the comments reveal much more about the writers than anything about me.  to subscribe to a blog, take the time to read it, and then to comment take times.  i don’t understand why one has so little to do that they would take that time to not only write nasty comments but to feel that way towards another person.  it is sad.  sad for them.  not for me.

i am not perfect.  i have many, many flaws.  i struggle with my weight.  i struggle with fertility.  i struggle with not saying four letter words in public.  i struggle with being a nice person on many days.  i have so many struggles.  when i write about my successes, it isn’t because i want to throw it in peoples faces.  it is to remind us all that we have moments of struggle and triumph.  it is a roller coaster that we are all on.

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so dear readers, ask yourself. do you take pleasure in my weight gain when i have been trying so hard to lose? do you take pleasure in my fertility pains and the hormone obstacles that go along with it? if you do, please do, not only me, but more importantly yourself a favor and unsubscribe from my blog.

so back to healthy choices, i am making them.

my lunch for a couple of days now.  pb2 spread (45 calories) on a whole grain (kinda hard because it is gluten free and in no way delicious like a flour tortilla) tortilla (150 calories).  wrap up a banana for some fruit.

add my new FAVORITE yogurt for another 150 calories of 2% whole milk deliciousness. topped with 1/4 cup of granola.

i am sure i will talk more about this yogurt.  here is the link to the website.  their flavors are unique and unexpected.  ”peach and ginger” knocked my socks off.  the “wildflower honey” is subtle and nice.  i am transitioning to whole fat dairy products so no more chemistry filled yogurts for 40 calories.

if you can get your hands on this brand, try it immediately.  if i don’t beat you to the shelf first!

6 comments
Allison Kretlow
Allison Kretlow

I am so so sorry that you have experienced negativity on your blog. I too have had this experience with our adoption journey. Bottom line-it hurts. But I realized (after the tears) that the people who said those hurtful things didn't really know me. Or have any sense or social graces, let's be honest! Sending good vibes your way.

Shannon
Shannon

Who could be hating on you? Also, just so you know, you can block anonymous commenters (I do) in your blog settings. I think if someone is going to comment, they need to put a name to it.

Anonymous
Anonymous

Kelsi,Don't let the haters get you down. I too have been heavy for a long time. Seeing how hard you try and HOW MUCH YOU SUCCEED even dispite your struggles is truly inspiring. Thank you for all that you share.AK

Anonymous
Anonymous

Kesli,First off, what the hell! Who could criticize you! You are totally rockin for putting everything out there and letting people in to see that you feel the same way we all do, vulnerable. Life IS messy and the other 99.99999% of people dont want to admit when they struggle or have hard days or really admit how they feel at all. Your blog is a sunny spot in my day and I love reading about new recipes of yours or about your awesome vacay that made me totally jealous! (in a good ...happy for you kind of way! ;-) People are ridiculous and dont like seeing others do well. Brush em off and keep doing YOU! Sending lots of love! Thanks for being inspiring,honest, and real!

Anonymous
Anonymous

You go, girl! Don't let the haters get you down. I also spend time trying to analyze that mindset, but it's really just a waste of my energy. Try to pay attention to your positive responders instead and let that feed you.

Sarah
Sarah

It's amazing how many hateful awful people spend their time trolling blogs. I'm sorry someone targeted you but I'm refreshed by your perspective. You are an awesome woman!