two pounds gone. yay! finally back on track. paying attention to calories going in. exercising the calories out. i can’t express how good it feels to be active again after my back injury. to lace up the sneakers, i don’t take the smallest acts for granted. i literally couldn’t move. couldn’t bend over to put on a pair of socks. to lace up my shoes freely, go for a walk. puts a permanent smile on my face.
i am working hard to find a balance. balance has always been my struggle. when i do something, i go all in. when i am only focusing on losing weight, i lose 100 pounds. now that i am focusing on getting pregnant, it is more difficult. i have transitioned from the low-fat, low-calorie, chemical cocktail foods to whole-fat, more calories, whole foods. i can push myself for two weeks until i ovulate, then i ease up because of our miscarriage history the doctors have told me what i can and can’t do. it is a balance that i have to figure out how to succeed with. it is a struggle. i want both so badly. to lose more weight. to have a healthy pregnancy. i know they can go hand in hand. i just have to figure out the right combination for me.
on a completely different note, well not completely, it kills me whenever i run into someone i haven’t seen in a while and they immediately notice the weight loss. i love those moments! what kills me is when they ask how i did it and i tell them, there is no secret. portion control and lots of exercise. the look on their face. disappointment. disgust. usually there is an eye roll. then i saw this pin on pinterest and i just laughed. i think this needs to be a shirt, i would wear it everyday.
so thats it. trying to find balance this week. finding peace that i am heading in the right direction.
hope you all have a great start to your week