i have seen these wordless wednesday posts and find them refreshing. i love the simplicity of just photographs from the week, nothing more and nothing less.
this past weekend, i camped. in a tent. in the woods. with my best friend. it was an amazing adventure. no bears. no rain. no crazy stories to report. just pure bliss of doing something i have never done before.
the husband wanted to tackle some gnarly mountain biking trails. i wanted to relax and read a book. we found the perfect spot. $18 for lake front real estate. despite the downpour driving to the campsite and the downpour driving home, for the too short time we were camping we were rain free. for a few moments we even saw the sun.
we set up camp. what is it about quilts and tents that make my heart so happy. i was a serious rock star putting up the tent. i surprised the husband with my mad camp skills.
tent is up, time to take in the view.
after a walk around, it was time to prep for camp food. i have decided that there are no calories in camp food. you all agree, right?! for dinner i threw together a can of beans (camping requirement), a green, red, and yellow pepper, 2 shallots, and some organic chicken sausage. throw together in my le creuset dutch oven with some olive oil over some fire, major camp deliciousness.
and what is the point of camping if you don’t have marshmallows and chocolate. i would like to thank pinterest for this gluten free option to the traditional graham cracker smores. i called them banana boats of deliciousness. wrap the banana in foil, stuffed with marshmallows and chocolate, place over the fire for about 5 minutes. man, oh man. major yum!
we made it the through the night. there were facilities in the campground, which were a huge plus for this rookie camper. in all honesty and because it makes me feel like a camping bad ass, i did in fact pee
in the woods in front of the car, on the gravel. i woke up in the middle of the night and had. to. go. but didn’t want to walk to the bathrooms in the dark, alone, so i opted to just go. the funny thing, i didn’t actually want to walk into the “woods” either. so i opted for in front of the car, on the gravel. i was startled when the husband yelled over, “what are you doing?” to which i replied, “peeing in the woods! i am a real camper!” he quickly stated, “you aren’t in the woods if i can clearly see you camper.” touche husband. i am indeed a camper.
it has been a two months since the last time i traveled via plane. it has been only three short weeks since our last little road trip. but i have the bug. the travel bug. i’ve got it bad. wanderlust that is. a very strong and irresistible impulse or desire to travel the world.
i am not sure what it means honestly. maybe i am just restless. i am plenty busy and the days seem to fly by along with the to-do list only growing. but emotionally i am in this weird place. we just concluded our “year of me” where we traveled to places i have always wanted to go or my favorite places to be. i focused on goals and health and it was wonderful. the plan was to now continue life with health at a top priority and to shift gears to baby making. well, i am not sure why i thought it would happen immediately. nothing seems to go according to my plan. but this month to month uncertainty, it is emotionally exhausting.
so the thought of just getting away is beyond refreshing to my frustrated soul. i sincerely love going to cities i have never been. each destination has a unique feel. i remember when we were in the arizona desert last year, not wanting to blink my eyes. i wanted to absorb every ounce of this new landscape. it fascinates me on a deep level that i yearn to replicate.
luckily, we have a fun big city trip planned later this year for a couple of days. a first time camping adventure right around the corner. but the desire is there to travel more. and it is fierce.
“tonight i’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
so i like to keep my issues drawn
but it’s always darkest before the dawn”
“and it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
so shake him off”
my new workout song that i reach to in “that moment.” you know, that moment when you think you are going to die. that moment when you don’t think your legs will run another step.
i am counting down the days until i hear this song live. i absolutely can. not. wait.
on thursday the husband and i joined two of our good friends and headed to virginia for the portsmouth mumford and sons concert. needless to say, they did not disappoint. not one single bit. here is the husband and myself waiting on the lawn before the show started. first row lawn seating can’t be beat.
and then the show began. it was incredible. a perfect mix of the favorite songs from their existing cd with several new songs from their upcoming new cd. the release date is september 25th. and yes, my copy is already pre-ordered.
what amazes me about these four guys from west london is their lyrics. it is as if they are singing directly into my soul. the thing is everyone at the concert knew every word, right along with me. those words mean something to them. it was a beautiful thing being in a small-ish venue and hearing waves of people singing the same lyrics that mean so much to me. i love that four guys can write songs that have helped me heal from miscarriage. it is pretty incredible.
here is one of their new songs. i believe it will be their first single. it moved me. of course, everything these days is related to my fertility. or frustrations and sadness and anger, i.e. my fertility. it all goes hand and hand at this point. the song is “i will wait” and i am beyond sure it was not meant to be written for a woman that so desperately wants a child of her own but that is how i took it. it brings tears to my eyes every time i listen. it moves me. and at the end of the day, i am waiting for our child. and i will wait until the day when i wait no more.
“now i’ll be bold
as well as strong
and use my head alongside my heart”
just in case you wanted another reason to run to get their new cd.
i mean. tears streaming down my face.
“so give me hope in the darkness that i will see the light
cause oh that gave me such a fright
but i will hold as long as you like
just promise me that we’ll be alright”